I Could Use Some Energy

For some reason I was in a bad mood when I got home from the art studio last night. I did better as far as throwing pots went, but I was disappointed with some of the things the owner said to me. When I got out of the car, Fletcher was sitting outside in the yard talking to a friend on the phone. As I walked past him, I felt something biting my foot. I was wearing flip-flops and it was dark so I never saw what it was but it stung like a scorpion sting in spite of icing it, standing in cold water, and putting Benadryl on it. At 2 AM I took some Ibuprophen (mainly because my back was hurting from throwing pots) and went to bed.  Ten minutes later I turned the light back on because the pain made it impossible to sleep. I read some more of the Witchling book until I finally nodded off.  Then at 4 AM a car alarm went off and I heard a car driving past the house. Since I live in the middle of nowhere, I had to get up and see if my car was still in the driveway.  It was, and I was thankful that my foot wasn't hurting anymore.

This time I slept until almost 8 AM and got up right as Fletcher was off to work. Two hours later, I couldn't keep my eyes open and had to go back to bed again. It's a Saturday and I have lots to do but I just don't have the energy for it. I watered 2 of the trees. It's the desert. If you don't water things, they die rather quickly.  I worked on my weaving some. I'd like to do something more physical today. The dishes at the very least. But I can still barely keep my eyes open.

Me a few years ago.

Hot Day Dry Wind

I feel a sense of malaise that I just can't shake these days. It is hard to stay in a good mood for any length of time. I find solace in nature and art, but my life seems to have no forward momentum. Every time I get a new source of income, another source dries up. I've tried talking to people about it, but that only makes it worse. The hot weather leaves me with a perpetual headache. In fact I slept half the day to avoid the heat. After we went to town and back, baking in our truck that has no air conditioning, I had a migraine. Plus its dusty from the wind, so I've been sneezing. The locals here don't understand what my problem is. The heat barely seems to register. Am I going to have to stay indoors under the cooler until October?

Chocolate Rocks

Monday and I'm Taking the Day Off

I'm having one of those 'too tired to move' days. It's hot (94 on the porch but 88 according to weatherunderground.com).  I'm super tired from the weekend. We had a lot of customers at the archery booth yesterday. Luckily friends helped us tear down.  But this morning we were both so tired that the truck hasn't been unpacked. We'll wait until twilight to do it.

Our neighbor is also on vacation, so we have the added duties of caring for her yard. One of the horses slipped out of her fly mask, so my boyfriend had to go in and put it back on. We are not horse people, so we have to figure out how to do things sometimes.

Plus we are taking care of our own sick cat. It's been challenging knowing what the right thing to do is.

I really just want to do some drawing today. I fell asleep in the recliner reading a vampire book. I dreamed we rented a never ending house that caught on fire. I'm running through the house yelling 'fire, get out' and then I lost my voice. As I struggled to yell louder and louder, my boyfriend (in real life) yelled out from the other room 'Did you say something'. I was talking in my sleep.

Then I woke up with a charlie horse in both calves. The right side was worse so I ended up getting up and walking it off. So much for napping.

I'm still not recovering my energy. I think it's just too hot out. Or in, I should say, because I'm sitting under the fan and staying inside until it cools off a bit.